We Can't All Be Shiny Happy People

Do you ever get the feeling that no one understands you?  Like just because everyone else is happy in life they think that you should be, too.  You try to explain to them why you're not - why you feel like you're slowly dying inside, suffocating with every breath you take.  You tell them how trapped you feel - how there is so much the world has to offer and you just can't reach any of it because you're living in a box (a cozy and familiar box, but a box nonetheless).  You tell them how lonely you feel, how confined and restricted with no one to help pass the time.  You tell them all of this and instead of offering words of understanding and encouragement that things will get better (because you know as well, deep in your heart, that things will get better...eventually - sometimes we just need a little reassurance), instead they try to force you to be happy where you are.  It's like discontentment is an alien concept for them to grasp.  How could anyone be so sad and morose in this beautiful, sunny world that we live in?  They are blind to the clouds rolling in over your head and the rain pelting down and stinging your skin.  They can't understand why you're always depressed, and they seem almost annoyed by it.  They try to tell you to enjoy what you have now - that you'll miss it later on.  How can anyone tell you what you will or will not miss in the future when every person is different?  Everyone else seems to think they know what's best for you.  They know where you need to live, what you need to eat, what you need to study.  They're always telling you what you "want" to do.  But really they have no idea what you want - and where do they get off on thinking they have the right to assume they do?  Hell, I don't even know what I want!

Sometimes we're just unhappy - with where we are in life and the people we have in our life.  And the only thing that can change that is time; time to bring about something new.  Nothing is automatic and sometimes we just have to wait it out.  And although we may acknowledge this fact, it doesn't make the waiting period any easier.  And the knowledge that things will be better in the future doesn't make the present any easier.  So it's unfair for those shiny happy people who have already reached the better days  to try to dictate our lives and force us to be happy.  It's not that simple.  They try to relate and they say they've been in your shoes once.  Maybe...but they've never been in your mind.  And until that day comes they cannot just come along and tell you how to feel.